My mother passed away on Sunday, February 1, 2009 at 3:20 a.m. following a long and hard battle with dementia. She was well loved and loved well, and she will be greatly missed.
I’m not functioning terribly well yet, but I wanted to make this post, just to let my readers know. I’ll post more soon. It’s terribly, terribly hard – as anyone who has lost a mother would know. I’ve spent the last few years mourning the “loss” of my mother (the true essence of her), and so I guess (irrationally) I thought that her actual death would not be so very painful. After all, it was not unexpected. And by the end, we were praying that she would just not suffer anymore. But … even with all that … this is a pain that I’ve never experienced.
If you’ve been a long-time reader of this blog, you know that within the past two years I’ve lost both my sister (in a house fire) and my brother (cancer). And now my mom. I think I’m actually feeling the culmination of all three losses at once.
Anyway, it’s just incredibly hard and I’m not in a good place right now. I believe it will get easier as time goes on – that’s what friends are telling me, anyway.
I’ll post more when I can.